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Entered By: Paula
Entry Date: 2015-05-17 23:29:16
Subject: Sunday May 17, 2015

 Tonight as I was listening to some beautiful classical music I was thinking of Gerardo.  I think of him so often.  Love that kid.    I was thinking about how he loved to be loved.  He loved that we loved him.  He loved that he was a part.  He loved that he fit.  He loved that he had had a woman that loved and cared for him long before us.  

So many times I replay those last hours, minutes, moments with Gerardo.  So many things I wish I had said, so many things I wish that I hadn't have said.  Music moves me that way, makes me think, causes my mind and heart to settle in and reflect.  I loved him, and though I can't relive his illness and make it all better, I can grow.  

I pray that my words will be truth, light, and full of compassion.  I pray that I will be able to walk with people where they are, and help them to where they are going.   I pray that I can see beyond myself to those around me and beyond me.  I pray that I can listen to hearts and not judge by what I see.   He does that for me.  God.  

I am thankful for Gerardo's life, for music, for beauty, and for eternity.  


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